Elmwood Spa

For Mothers Day, Jessye had purchased a pregnancy Mommy Spa Day for me. On Monday I woke up and fed Tyson and took him for a walk, than got ready packed my new bathing suit and left for a day at the spa. The Spa was located on Elm Street a few blocks behind the Eaton Centre Downtown Toronto. Once i got there i was welcomed by an employee that gave me a hot hand towel, and asked me to fill up some information on one of the several Ipad's in the middle of the room. I was than taken upstairs to the second floor where the women's changing room located, I was given a very comfy white bath robe and flip flops to wear throughout my day, I went to go change and leave all my belonging in the secure locking room. 

I grabbed my book and cellphone and went to the third floor where the pool was, because of my pregnancy I was unfortunately not able to use the hot tub nor the Whirlpool. I floated around in the pool for a bit until it got crowded than left to go sit on one of the lounging chairs to read my novel. I was than scheduled for my 50 min pregnancy massage which was absolutely needed, after my massage i was escorted to the dining room to be served my 3 course meal. I choose the Greek salad for my appetizer, AAA steak and potatoes for my entree and a delicious marshmallow fondue for dessert. 

After my delicious meal i went to the lower level called the Laguna where i had my pedicure done. I choose a very pretty lilac color for the Spring weather. 

Thank you Daddy Jessye, this was a remarkable first Mother's Day, and I cannot wait to spend the next with our little bubba. Love you

Nabila xo 

Mother's Day!

May 10th, I celebrated my first Mother's Day. My generous husband had mentioned that he had planned an evening of mani/pedi's and sushi. I was looking forward for the weekend to get pampered with my love and have a delicious tray of dragon rolls. On the day of Mother's Day Jessye and I woke up at our usual time and fed our growing boy Tyson than took him for a short walk. We also had plans to go see my mother and go visit all the mamas on Jessye side of the family. While Jessye left to get some errands done I got myself ready took a nice shower and got dressed. When Jessye got back home he told me to go into our bedroom because he had a surprise for me. When i came out I was surprised with a beautiful home garden and a thoughtful card written by the greatest husband. He asked me to open my email for the rest of my gift which was a day at Elmwood Spa for a Pregnancy Mommy Spa Day, it consisted of a water therapy, a pregnancy massage (which I have been dying for) a three course meal and finally a pedicure. I am so excited!! 

I love you Daddy Jessye xo

We went to go visit my mother which we got her a beautiful pot of miniature peach coloured roses, we sat and chatted for a bit than left to go visit all the mums on Jessye's side of the family. We all gathered at his aunt Nellie's home. Monika the eldest daughter planned a wonderful evening with all the moms for BBQ and fun surprises. She was very thoughtful to have made all the mums including myself coasters with all their children's faces on them. Since we don't know how our little Arya looks like yet, they made one of all her ultrasounds.  

Thank you Monika for this beautiful gift. 

Nabila xo 

Fears

The day I found out I was pregnant, my whole life changed. Reading the positive symbol on the pregnancy test was so overwhelming I had no idea what I should be feeling or how I should react. Jessye was positive that I was pregnant I’m assuming my overly B****ing gave it away and the raging hormones that was on full affect. Phoning him during his nightly shifts at work, crying about how I hated sleeping alone in our fairly new apartment and not having to see him in the morning when I was off to work. Prior to my pregnancy I had no problem sleeping on our queen size bed and not having to share the blanket.
 

I’ll never forget Jessye’s reaction; it was what I’ve always imagined full on tears and excitement in his eyes. Till this day we joke about how the roles were reversed, I should have been the one in tears and jumping for joy whereas he would be pacing up and down our apartment wondering how and if we can manage a child in our lives. I remember him trying to get me to sit down and talk about how amazing this news is and how we will share the news to our families. All I could thing was S**T how the heck am I going to tell my Muslim family that I am pregnant and not married until the following month. I was excited. Becoming a mum was very important to me, both Jessye and I adore kids and have been around children all our lives, I had no doubt that we would not be good parents the only doubt that I had was can we financially do this.

It has been a roller-coaster dealing with my fears, bringing a tiny human into this world, sharing the news to the families and how this impacts mine and Jessye’s marriage.  Thus far Jessye and I have been doing well we do have our moments of unsure but we always seem to get it together and help one another. He has been a great support helping out around our home, cooking on days that I couldn’t, cleaning up after me (I do get messy). I don’t know if he knows how much I appreciate everything he has done for me, thanking him feels like it’s not enough. I just hope he knows how much I love him and couldn’t have gone this far without his love, support and deep understanding.

The fear of going into labor runs through my mind daily, scared that something tragic will occur in the hospital that my child will be breached and I would have to go through an emergency caesarean , not that I have anything against C-sections it’s just not my first choice. I would rather have a vaginal birth but if I have no choice than yes, caesarean is the way to go. Will my child have any deformities? Will my child grow up and become a serial killer, the most bizarre scenarios runs through my brain, and I know its normal for pregnant women to have crazy vivid dreams but I just can’t help but think of these things.

For now I think I should just focus on eating healthy, getting enough exercise and loving my growing family. Leave the stress behind me even though it’s hard at times when you have people in your life that strives on negativity. My life is about my family Jessye, Arya and our two fur balls. I don’t have the time or energy to deal with other people’s insecurities or have to explain why I choose the way I plan to.

Nabila xo

Baby Bump.

A collage of Baby Arya's development. From our very first ultrasound at 6 weeks till now. 

Baby Bump at 21 weeks. 

Spring Time, Finally pull out some maxi dresses to wear on this beautiful spring day.