Morning Startle

Yesterday morning waking up for work, I was experiencing sharp pains in my lower abdomen. As a first time mum I receive lots of advice from veteran mums that tell me about their pregnancy. The first few weeks I was getting period cramps that I’m quite familiar with when I had my menstrual period on the regular. Jessye's aunt mentioned how this is normal it’s just my body adjusting to the new baby in me, but if they continue and are severe I would have to go see a doctor. 

I panicked thinking the worst, especially this week being so stressed out with breaking the "big news" to my parents and not getting the reaction that I was hoping I would. I felt like I've already failed as a mother to allow such negativity get to my sweet baby. I ran back into our bedroom to let Jessye know what was happening, he told me to get back into bed email work to let them know that I wasn't coming in and to relax. I wish he could stop telling me to “relax” or “let it go” it’s not as easy as it may seem; I've always had issues with letting things not affect me or that I over think everything I do or said about me.

I wrote on my mommy group on babycenter what was happening; I love the support that I receive from mums that live all over the world, letting me know that it could possibly be ligament round which is just my uterus stretching itself for the growing bubs in me. I also phoned in my doctor’s office hoping that my family doctor would get back to me and reassure that everything was alright.

I laid back in bed beside my snoring Jessye and played candy crush until I fell back asleep. When we woke up Jessye made me a delicious tuna sandwich, which I devoured while watching one of my silly shows “Judge Judy”. 

Nabila